at twenty-one my life took a spirit-filled turn,
the spirit i chose had a distilled burn.
at twenty-one i slapped down my ID and ordered a drink,
my mind went away and I was unable to think.
at twenty-one was a beginning anew,
just like jumping from a bridge begins a fall into blue.
at twenty-one i laughed with friends.
painful mondays alone without end.
all friends have gone away…
twenty-one years ago the calamity ended.
i began a new life drink-less dry, sobriety contended.
it opened a door to see the true Light,
one that did not interrupt a passed-out night.
it took several years to know this great One,
clarity ensued but i still had to run.
We all know who wins in the end,
it is Jesus who soon enough became my friend,
He sustains me day-by-day…
now life is changed my vision grows stronger.
darkness so short, daylight much longer.
without God where would I be?
no wife, no children, no family.
today is special as milestones are here,
twenty-one years sober and a loving daughter’s birthday to cheer.
tears and pain have lost their sting,
at twenty-one i thank the Lord for now i sing.
happy birthday, Phoebe.
happy monday, to me…
first sober day november 26 1991
It must have been quite painful to write this poem. Memories flood back that you’d rather forget. God has pulled you out of the pit and placed your feet upon the “Rock”.. God’s GRACE is more than sufficient. He loves you deeply Rick. I can say the same with confidence. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us.
This is wonderful…. really tugged my heart strings. Thank you for sharing and many blessings to you.
Thank you so much. I am blessed by your kind words!